The soft tap of the rain against my window leaves me staring at the sky. Sweet and melancholy feelings come over me as I hear the rain. I close my eyes and dig deep into my memories, picking the most significant. It was the day similar to this. I was holding your hand in the rain. You took me to see the mountains hiding behind the clouds. The only warmth I felt that day was with your hug, holding me, and gazing into your eyes. I remember your bright smile and gentle touch. My heart beating slow yet steady. The scene of this as if time just stopped for a couple minutes. You leaned your head to to touch my forehead. With our eyes closed, I felt something I have never felt before. It was your love surrounding me, listening to my heart, bold enough to take the next leap. I wanted stay in the moment even if I would give me a temporary illness. It was beautiful in its own way. It was the time I heard your heart only calling my name, only calling me, only loving me.
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Sunset over the hills of either Riverside or Moreno (I don't remember which)
Although you are far away I feel your warmth with the sun at it's peak, a glow shines through me telling me that you are always near Like the time you captured the sunset of beauty and the time we both felt the warmth it brought that day I feel you even when you are distant from me Closing my eyes and soaking the light, I'm calling you with my heart hoping you hear that I will be with you soon, soon to see my star Yet in the time between the light of sunset and the awakening of twilight, I want to feel the same glow of you with the sun and shed a small tear for missing you, for being away Happy to see the sweet sunset, knowing and always knowing I'll be coming home to you wherever I may be. Author's Note: For my one true love, my one and only, Gilleo Rose. Happy Birthday and many more to come!! ^-^! Love You so much!!! 11/21/09
G- Great is a love I've come to know I- Immaculate within his heart, to which he loves, L- Loves wholly and never aging, but growing immensely L- Liking the stars that gave him a love so true, E- Earnestly holding on to each precious memory, O- Opening his heart to me as each day goes by. What I will miss most
is the touch of your hand the smiles that you give the warmth the I feel when you are next to me so close that I can hear your heart beat I could smile remembering precious memories when your eyes squint with every laugh you give and your stares so gently set on mine will you be far a way? I can't tell as long as your safe I don't have to worry I can see my tears falling now thinking of you makes me cry somehow let sleep well tonight be in my dreams holding me tight Will you see the stars, or be mesmerized by enchanting heights? if only you could spare thought for me and visit me in my dreams Let me be your star
so when you close your eyes I'll shine for you in the night skies when you dream Let me be your star so I can live forever in your heart so when I'm long gone I'll live for years until I meet you again Let be your star so I entertain you and make you smile at the skies And when the breeze is calm I am there gently giving you kisses, when I am not there. I'm here all around you just close your eyes I'm dancing happily, so don't worry. My heart is hidden in the oceans you have come to like, you have the key right inside your heart, the way towards there is me the star. Let me be your star so I can reveal my world to you and remember that part of it is built around you. Almost a year and I feel that so much has been accomplished and yet there is so much to await in the future. The best part is that he is still happily with me. Through hardships, sorrows, and sleepless nights to waking up with teary eyes, today I feel this connection growing even stronger.
I remember memories of the past that started something beautiful today. Although it was at times rough, I didn't know that he was that persistent and careful. Remembering times he left messages and antics of his drove me crazy, he couldn't get off mind, literally. The smile I remember most, I know that smile is very much imprinted in my heart, it will never go away. His gazing eyes that I never noticed then, his laugh that is a happily intoxicating thing, and his outwardly kindness. (I'm very lucky, this I know). The roses, the gifts, the small talk, it all succeeded accordingly. He seized that moment and he should be glad of it. Today, I love everything he does, even the things I don't notice. From the day I saw this person and succumbed to his arms and raised that white flag and surrendered, giving up on not liking him but to give in to really liking him to finding out that he is my love, my true love. It wasn't easy but what is true love called without undergoing hardships? I take every moment as if I were to see him the last time. I opened my own heart especially wide for him that I will continually know him so well from his behavior to his actions. I love seeing him when he closes his eyes for a few seconds and I stare at him lovingly and every time I want to cry because in my eyes he is like a rare gem that gives happiness for a long long time and if you are lucky you will find yourself incandescently happy (gladly I was very lucky). And I forever want to be incandescently happily, wholeheartedly in love with him (all day, everyday). I never knew that a true love would exist in a world where such a thing is a like myth and that one who has it is blessed and also envied by others. I'm glad my true love is perfect the way he is because I accepted him out of anyone else. I can't wait to love him everyday and care for him, I know already he will do the same for me. My one true love, my one and only, my Senpai, my Gilleo, my never-wilting Rose. Just for a while
I will think of you often, even as we separate off in our ways, I will spare a thought for you for a while. When seasons change, from it's kiss of frost, I will always think of you for a while. Within the moments of sleep and the awakening of the morning thoughts of you seep for a while, you are with me and I feel you with your warmth even if it's just for a while. Even after I've said those words and after a tear, a heartbreak of longing, I still want you even just for a while. If we could get lost in time, within a moment, I would take that chance even if it's just for a while. Look at us now,
living a love we've always dreamed of, being together in love, anticipating a brighter light. Look at us now, hand in hand, it is just right, no matter the troubles, we won't go without a fight Here we are now, never wanting to let go, I want be forever hearing your voice, above all the noise of the world You keep me grounded, my heart astounded, and I'm lost in your eyes You make things better, as we grow stronger, I know I can not ever let you go never let you go. Look at us now, in your arms, the way it should be, never leaving your side, words expressed through emotions, can't help my devotion to you. These words are never enough but I love you. Author's Note: Minus the Desert Heat (lol) Author's Note: Based on one afternoon. |
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