Author's Note: I remember I sang this song as a solo for choir once. I remember my throat was in no way ready to sing that night. So I preserved my voice and drank tea until I was on stage. I was nervous because I had done very little practice and I was afraid my voice would crack due to singing in a different key. I remember at that time I had to really muster up my courage and believe in myself when no could really help me and I had to face it all on my own all at the same time. In the end, I sang my song in my very best and I recieved a lot of positive comments and great confidence. I need to believe in myself again maybe not as quick as that night but definitely just as much. I also hope my loved one will never cease to believe in me as well.
And the song was called I'll Try by Joantha Brooke
I am not a child now.
I can take care of myself.
I mustn't let them down now.
I mustn't let them see me cry.
I'm fine, I'm fine.
I'm too tired to listen.
I'm too old to believe.
All these childish stories.
There is no such thing as faith and trust and pixie dust.
I try but its so hard to believe.
I try but I can't see what you see.
I try, I try, I try.
My whole world is changing.
I don't know where to turn.
I can't leave you waiting.
But I can't stay and watch the city burn.
Ohh watch it burn.
Cause I try but it's so hard to believe.
I try but I can't see what you see.
I try, I try.
I try and try to understand the distance in between.
The love I feel, the things I fear and every single dream.
I can finally see it.
Now I have to believe all those precious stories.
All the world is made of faith and trust and pixie dust.
So I'll try cause I finally believe.
I'll try cause I can see what you see.
I'll try, I'll try
I will try, I'll try to fly
And the song was called I'll Try by Joantha Brooke
I am not a child now.
I can take care of myself.
I mustn't let them down now.
I mustn't let them see me cry.
I'm fine, I'm fine.
I'm too tired to listen.
I'm too old to believe.
All these childish stories.
There is no such thing as faith and trust and pixie dust.
I try but its so hard to believe.
I try but I can't see what you see.
I try, I try, I try.
My whole world is changing.
I don't know where to turn.
I can't leave you waiting.
But I can't stay and watch the city burn.
Ohh watch it burn.
Cause I try but it's so hard to believe.
I try but I can't see what you see.
I try, I try.
I try and try to understand the distance in between.
The love I feel, the things I fear and every single dream.
I can finally see it.
Now I have to believe all those precious stories.
All the world is made of faith and trust and pixie dust.
So I'll try cause I finally believe.
I'll try cause I can see what you see.
I'll try, I'll try
I will try, I'll try to fly
- I sincerely love the song because of the change in lyrics in the end from disbelief to belief. I never thought this song would find a way back into my life again, but I'm glad it did. Just remembering myself, believing in myself has given courage and strength as I did before. I pray that I believe in myself to improve myself and never falter to stop believing that I can change for the very best. :)