The enjoyment of making fun,
little laughs that hurt my ears,
don't think I don't hear the projection of that voice when this one talks with you,
feelings may be concealed during conversations in game,
oh how this one calls your name,
for help, for jokes, for fun
but my mind is muddled for a serious and pathetic want and a foolish dislike
I can't seem to depict what is emotion or plain logic--common sense
I keep thinking this one's feelings for you is between the lines
and I truly wish that it isnt so and that I am just foolishly wrong
but I'm trying to withstand the inner anger I let grow,
kept to bottle inside, nearly a huge blow
I want to say don't let your guard down on that day when you go, get ready to play that fight if ever that event occurs
in which this friend (this one) might want to take you away and might try to steal your heart,
and though these are all bottled thoughts and wanting to just say all this out,
you're right, I've really mixed my emotions with my thoughts,
I let myself succumb to silliness and let myself be prey to my own foolishness, and you know that can't ever do any good.
I just want you to sometimes not pay mind to this one so,
or make this one laugh so much, or make this one smile with almost everything you say
it leaves me wanting to laugh with you and wonder what you said
I wish it was just only me (besides family and guy friends) could you do that and make it so I could only laugh that way and smile that way, instead of this one who broadcasts all these emotions live
But of course I can't control your words and actions for they are your own and may not be helped once said.
This is the end to my short gloom I feel, the ache I feel just because I can't bear to listen to this one attentively talk and hear you with joy, a joy this person should give to someone else who isn't taken. I suppose I can only hope to just laugh at this someday when I look back at the time I was 22 and did not like that one person who I thought wanted to pursue you.