Life Anew

Sometimes when things seem to go awry 
but not realize how much pain inflicted inside
images of gold start to tarnish and rust
with the other person knowing 
and myself selfishly blind
by hate, anger, and defeat
not knowing your words meant to help and not hurt
your help meant for my wounds, inflicted upon myself, to heal
your words to not worry were to make me --us feel better
But it turned like a downward spiral and a viscous cycle 
that would eventually stop when the hope is lost

The hope still lives
the ever so small flickering light
at the end of the tunnel
I finally saw today
The reason why I was so deep in what seemed to darkness and gray
The fear of losing one so important would happen if the spiral continued
The loss of a love, a best friend would be gone in an instant
had I not caught myself with the wrong answer to a simple question
It starts and it ends with me
the hurt was me
the pain and sorrow
all through my thoughts
and hurt you I did
without ever knowing 
how slow and sudden the end would be

To pick myself up off the heavy rubble 
that broke off from a once built foundation that "us" came to be
I saw and felt your anger and sorrow and I know why it is
And now know what Us SHOULD be
The mural of love you made of me though not yet filled with rust I can clean away
The light can be a bright improvement
And can shine down on me again
in which I hope to see the favor in your eyes
This is a chance I will surely take 
and a farewell to my incredible mistakes

Do not give up on me 
for I know what I must do 
to make things better
and start a new chapter
of Life Anew.


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